And so it is done. Whoop-dee-freakin’ doo.
Long year that blurred by in about three seconds. For me at least. A year of construction, deconstruction, and reconstruction. One of learning about myself, who I really am and what I really want, and don’t want. One of appreciating others in my life and coming into healthier relationships.
I spent all of Christmas weekend in a hospital room helping look after my Dad. He’s still in there this New Year’s Eve. Please send healing energy his way. If you don’t believe in that sort of thing, think positively about him or something.
But anyway, I learned that life can be hard. But it’s a hell of a lot easier for me than many, many others in this world. I learned that we all, all earth-bound beings, are in this together. We all have our life challenges, character flaws, and blessings and beauty. We can choose to share this life with each other or insulate ourselves from each other. There are good times for each of those actions. And we should listen to our selves.
That thing, that stuff, that web that seems to connect us seems to have some intelligence or wisdom or something. From my experience, it speaks to me through me, and through others, including people and other-than-peoples. I’ve been learning to listen a little better, through the joy and pain. It all has something beneficial to say. Maybe not always pleasant, but beneficial.
Anyway, that’s about it.
Cheers.
Thanks so much for your blog . . . I read the “about you” info . . .somehow it has made me feel better to know I am not alone in my pentecostal state.
Maybe it comes with my age, some genetic encoded passage I am wondering through, but I am dealing with a very rough road concerning my faith. A road I never wanted to travel or envisioned I would.
The title of your blog is what drew me to read the contents. Hope to read more as you share . . .
Much hope and peace for your new year, and yes, I will pray for your dad. (I still carry enough faith to pray for others. Barely.)
Whitney
Thank you Whitney. You most definitely are not alone.
FYI, you might like this post, in which I explore my thoughts/feelings on spiritual alienation: http://theagnosticpentecostal.com/2010/06/25/am-i-lost/
And here’s another one you might identify with, about the differences in my faith before versus now: http://theagnosticpentecostal.com/2010/07/19/faith-before-and-after/
Thanks for reading (and praying). Peace to you.